ey September. Things was going on track but you wanted to go side tracks too eyyh? Hurm the more I try the more holes i discover. holes i have to closed in order to get a smooth ride to success. Its all infront of me but rather blurry. I have try to plan all but things kept going sideways. My aunt came by, asking me how was i doing. I said so-so. The normal answer when people asked me. "Clear up your things with GOD, perform you prayers! You always forget about GOD yet you asked for so much in life", I was stunt but It kept me thinking. Maybe Im not a good Muslim all these while as Its so hard to excel in all the things i've done. Sigh......my parents kept saying the same thing. I had to change. Atleast a small step as starters. I"ll try, i will...... anyhow my September does rhymes with this song. Hmmmmpphh........
I felt So Empty Inside as Raya was so-so. Not that good. Even I didnt attend any of my regular open houses. Kinda left out this year haha maybe im too busy as I have abandon my friends due to my work. Well that's the sacrifice I have to do. Young is not a leisure time. Young is the time to work hard for your generation and for your loved ones. Work, lets work like a dog!
"It's been a hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log" - Beatles
I was a myspace addict once. My best friend Cik Orked msg me through ym and said that we had commented through myspace before. Way before we actually met. What an Irony. She said shes kinda bored and browse through her old comments and found me. Another problem pop up, i cant sleep thinking of it so i decided to browse through myspace. I came through an old friend profile. Shanu. She's in glasgow the last time we change comments and i tried google her up. The best thing is I found her wedding Picture. Also found up she has a kid now. She kinda dissapear and abandon her myspace. anyway Hahahaha Congrats Shanuriza Abu Bakar. (Pssst: You owe me a band tshirt LOL)
You came at the right mommment just to make myself ease. You came to mylife uninvited but I was happy. I thaught there is someone outthere who are not related to me in anyway but sincerely like me, or even care for me. You were very sweet, caring and i guess i lived in wonderland in a while. But you changed. Numerous unreplied sms's, And you stop contacting me. I was not like you aspected aite? Hahahhah its normal. Simply silent for sometime and today you show up acting like nothing happen. Like we were good friends. I was like, Hurm with the hectic with the store sorry if i kinda felt you were unwanted there. Well luck is not by my side anyway. Hahahahah well Im better off like this rather than "chasing rainbows after sunsets"
Please, I cant bear any false hope nemore....
I HOPE SEPTEMBER WILL BRING ME SOME SMILES IN MY LIFE.........finger crossed!
Its almost the end of Ramadhan. The festive season is coming and everything seems not in tact. Damn why life can be so hard for me? Trobles been bashing me in da face for quite some time now. haih.....well that life aite. Just had a conversation with my parents. Im talking about life's problems. What my mom tell me, its not the end of the world. You must look for it and earned it with prayers and gratitude. Thats rarely done by me...maybe i shud be more of that. Looks like I'll be celebrating Eidulfitri with old clothes :P Somebody care to buy me Raya clothes??
11 Days to Raya....Finger crossed
p/s: Thinking of Futher my studies. Mass Comm or Management or Business Studies?
God, I know i havent be good lately. I know I did let you down but please ease me with the punishment. Its been hectic since Ramadhan. Gosh I guess I've been a really really bad boy. Sigh
i'm not desperate(hell yeah) i'm not looking for sympathy i'm just expressing my thoughts do fuck of if u think i'm emo..... let me live in my life as i want let me do whatever i do and as i wish do not bother me!! so fuck off !!!!!!!fuckers (pardon my french)
