Again my whining

Again life has been so hard. God has given me a great challenge in my life. I have to downsize and keep on looking for extra capital for my business. I had to letgo one of my best employee and maintain to a small scale operation. Moreover I have just sold my car again. Luckily my father's company was in need of a truck. Its the hardest thing to do in life. The things you bought and build with your bare hand and sweat are the hardest thing to say goodbye. Its normal but in business my brother said, but everything has its sentimental value. Hurm... This past few weeks was very depressing for us. We put on our poker face and hope people dont notice. I was amaze how my mother react as she knows me in and out. She suggested something that almost break my tears. But i cudnt take it. Its a heritage and your last heritage. Sigh i could only wish things coold get better one day. Hopefully soon. Amin.....

What If

I totally forgot about my writings but someone revive the memory. I got a msg from fb last nite
sounding like this:

"hey.. 1st, what shud I address u? nway I wanna ask u sumthing bout ur note which u have posted - What If 2.0.. isit originally written by u?"

And the conversation goes on and on. She tried to swam through the feelings when I wrote It but it kinda trigger the old memories. I was like damn im trying to put away this memories but it kept on coming back.

But at least somebody appreciate it.

Phobia

Ive settle my event with Vans, alhamdulillah its over with joyuos moments in our life. A week after the fashion show, I kinda feeling like i dunno. Difffrent. I have no fighting spirit, I always thinking of letting things off and just do nothing. Something is bothering me and i dunno what. Last week was even creepier. I felt something was in my house. I always came back quite late at night. It always gave me goosebumps. I dunno why. I heard a lot of weird noise. Pebbles falling down at night. People banging or knocking something non stop. I dunno im paranoid or something but i always kept in mind what Papa said "Its our house, just ignore it. If we are afraid of our own house where else we want to live. We sure dont want to life in fear rite?" Damn whats wrong with me. To make things worst, my brother was seriously ill last week. Damn! I had a talk with him and we decide to move on and act like nothing happen. But for how long, i dunno....

BRO!

Here's another thing. If a guy have a crush on a girl and she knows it. Its a heart breaking when she called him with the alias; BRO! its like i'm old or im your best friend. Damn. Its the second time it happen and i felt yuckie. This is how it happen (Influenced by How I Met Your Mother)

Theres an interview of me on Kosmo! yesterday. I didnt notice it untill a friend of mine tag the photo of the article at my fb. Its quite a honor for me to be review in Malaysian most readable newspaper. Then on dawn a bbm came in

She send a pic of the article with the caption " :congrats bro!"

I was like "Owh thanks :)"

She replied " Proud of you!"

And ya da ya da crappy hitting line of mine (Opppsss) went on till my bb batt drained out.

Sigh looks like I have face the fact shes my past crush.... Well didnt get her anything for her bday also. I was quite tide up actually on the day. Was thingking of sending her something but when this incident happen I was like HURMMMMM......

S.I.G.H

Kerna dikau, daku merana!

Knowing you i got an opportunity. But being friend with you makes me lost a chance of a life time. Attach to you make me devastated. I wish I had never say Hi to you in myspace. I hope we have never met. Seriously I do. I dont know how can I ever forgive you. Sigh!

The Road Not Taken

S.T.U.C.K!!

Should I know You

I was resting as a bad fever struck me. Sitting and laying made me more sicker. Was watching some tv programme and suddenly American Idol S10 teaser appear and steven tyler said something about looking for the best talent in america. This was my mother's reaction

Mama: Who is he?
Me: Steven Tyler
Mama: Should I know him?
Me: Duhhhh he's the god father of rock and roll mama!
Mama: Owh...

I grinned. You sure dont like rock music. Btw Liv tyler's hot scene on Armageddon kept on spinning in my head whenever i saw his father lol